Family Christmas Together
Christmas Cardsin December 2004.
the last Christmas our familywould
ever be all together again...
stormy Friday morning, our son,
William, went missing while
Auburn, CA. We searched desperately
for him that day and the following
and friends, church members
and the California Highway Patrol...
there were even helicopter searches
on the news and we gave a press
release pleading for the public to help
had just turned 19 years old...
posting them everywhere we could...
unbearable....Calls to his cell-phone
went straight to voicemail...
on the I-80 and Highway 49 and
to the Cal-Trans (California Transportation)
Highway workers. It was late on Monday
afternoon that the detective got
stating that they had found evidence
of a blue car that could possibly be
underwater....they had found the
of it literally spread down the hill
water at the bottom of the ravine.
Highway Patrol refused to let us
anywhere near the sight and
even thoughmy husband and I begged
them with tears streaming down our
faces, to allow us to stay there until
they could bring the car up...
side of the highway and go to the
of what they would find we did as
they said...we waited over an hour,
and my husband finally went back
up the sight where all the emergency
equipment was working with spoglights
as black and cold as our hearts felt while
we were waiting. They sent him back and
we all huddled there with blankets with
family and friends awaiting the news of
what they would find....I remember
so well just keeping my head down
have mercy and don't let it be our
William in those icy waters...Please
God have mercy"It was a long time
later when I remember a voice in
saying to us in a hushed tone...
spinning, my heart was exploding in
millions of pieces and I remember
Noooooo, Not my son...Not my only son...
they told me I fainted, but I
husband screaming...I don't remember
anything else except waking up the next
morning...It was light in my bedroom
and I could hear people talking....
and the only thing I could think of was
I need to be helping to look for William...
I need to find my baby...I cried out and
my husband ran into our room...
wake me upso I could help look for
William....I started crying and asking
him why he wasn't looking for
that we had to find him before another
day passed....My husband...he was
patiently trying to tell me...But I didn't
remember the night before...All I
remembered the next day was that we
needed to be out there searching
he didn't seem to understand that Will
was missing and that we needed to be
shook me and said"Honey....we found
William.....we found him last night."
my husband like he was speaking another
language...I couldn't seem to comprehend
what he was saying.
saying, "Where is he?"
my little brown boy!" That is when he
told me that William was in heaven with
anymore...He kept saying that our little
boy was now safe with Jesus...
behind me saying "It is Willam....
he has been positively identified."
lives forever...The heartbreak has been
so intense...The perfect circle of our
lovely little family was broken forever.
fateful December... and yet it still cuts
like a knife...wounds that will
from us here onearth....Yes the light of
his love lives on in our hearts...
we hear the echoes of his laughter...
and antics that would make everyone laugh....
his talented, beautiful hands...
and embodied will live on in our hearts
forever...His zest for life...his love for
anything extreme and wild...His amazing
capability of bring joy and laughter
everywhere he went, His musical talent....
it is all tucked away....treasures
to remember. Treasures in the darkness
of my December night, 2009.
December 2004, which was our
last Christmas together as a family...
of our hearts...Trying to live again...
for our daughter's sake...She
her best friend.
we love you and we are
happy and smiling.
the holidays...but all of the time.
camcorder, so we have no videos of our
only son...and that hurts so badly.
take. Make your moments in time last
beyond a lifetime. I know how important
it is to record and cherish every